Random Thoughts

DF is the only person that I do not know what I would do without.

Sure, you can fly him thousands of miles away from me, and I can miss him like crazy, but the moment I know, or think, he's not coming home, I have no idea what I'd do with myself.

I can't complain about the life I live. I'm about to have an amazing husband. And what I'm sure is going to be an amazing child.

Even though things seem to be tough on a day to day basis, we get through EVERYTHING... with flying colors.

Ugh. Bored. Tired. Bed.

G'night.

The unimaginable!

Went to the doctors.

The answer to my extreme fatigue and whatnot?







PREGGO!!!!


Now lets see how Josh takes it.

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Broken Bones, Lazy Days, Broken Promises

So yep, mom's leg is broken. No ifs and or buts to it. Stupid Patient First can't read an x-ray to save their lives. She went and got a temporary cast on it and will be going to see an orthopedic doctor on Thursday. She's been being dropped off at our apartment both yesterday and today so that she can have someone around to help her. Thank God we have a downstairs apartment. So I've been pretty much just staying around the house with my mom. Josh and I went out last night to try to sell the axle. That didn't happen. We went to the guy's house who we're storing the axle at's house. And the guy that wanted to buy it showed up and then decided that EVEN though the axle was exactly like Josh told him (aftermarket perches that are a little longer but are just tack welded to the axle and set up for spring over like for a Bronco II) that he didn't want to do that work to it. Josh handled it better than I thought he would. He was hoping on taking the money he got from the axle and take it up to Go Ho and have the radio installed in his truck this week since we just returned the other radio, speakers, and installation materials to Worst Buy (Best Buy). But obviously couldn't. We're waiting for NFCU to return the money to his account then we'll probably wait til payday and go get the radio installed (if Josh has midwatch that Saturday, if not no idea when we'll do it because I know I damn well am NOT riding around in the Jeep in 20 degree weather) so we can connect the satellite radio. I agree that we're getting a better deal. But at the same time, the only reason we went into Go Ho to begin with is because they had a sign outside that said Sony AM FM CD radio $119 installed. Instead, we're paying $139 plus parts for the radio and installation. I might deal with them a little more later. My dad said he got a radio installed there and when they said $139 installed, it was just $139 installed plus tax. So who knows. They probably are ripping Josh and I off. I'm just not willing to fight the battle. Lol!

All in all though, decent few days. Josh got off early yesterday and is working til 3 or 4 today. Then who knows what kind of stuff we're gonna get into tonight.

A Whole Day on 4 hours of sleep!

Went to bed AFTER 0400 this morning.
Woke up at 0845 this morning and getting a shower, finding out Josh didn't wanna go to church.
Went to church from 1000 to 1200.
Came home and Josh had just cooked lunch (chili, it was amazing!).
Watched the Steelers kick Miami's ASS!!!!!!
Went to the mall, returned the earrings my mom gave me for Christmas since they were damaged.
Went to Best Buy. Got lied to by some idiot working in Auto Electronics. Bitched out a manager--Okay, I guess by this point, I was extremely tired, hungry, and grumpy. So I might've went over the top.
Came home. Remembered that I had a Blu Ray disc to return.
Returned it.
Went to dinner with my love at Chilis--Gotta love they're $20 for an appetizer, 2 entrees, and a dessert deal.
Came home. Watched New in Town--AMAZING MOVIE--EVEN Josh would say so.
Wrote this. So tired.
Bed.

New Years Resolutions.

1. Lose weight. Hoping for 80 pounds minimum. I'd like 100.
Sidenote--Any suggestions on diets and whatnot to lose weight--greatly appreciated. Thanks!!
2. Blog 6 out of 7 days a week. AT LEAST!
3. Try to not be so scheduled. Spontaneity is going to be what I'm going to strive for. We've found out in the past few weeks, that having every spare minute of EVERY day planned to just about the second, is NOT fun.
4. When Josh is on deployment, be patient, work on a new hobby, spend time with wives/girlfriends/fiances/husbands/boyfriends of deployed soldiers and sailors, and send care packages once to twice a month and for all major holidays.
5. FIND A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!

Arguements and Frustration with a taste of Oil

So, positives of today?

1. Josh and I slept til 10. This is a first for a weekend in a longggg time.
2. FMIL called ONCE.
~That's right. ONCEEE!!!! We were also at the Hobby Shop when she called, so guess what? Josh hung up on her. It was amazing. I thought I was gonna have a heart attack.
3. The truck is FIXED!!!
4. My friend Kelsea's fiance finally got off from restriction! I'm so happy for her (and Anthony!)!

Everything else from today?
The reason we slept til 10? The dogs kept Josh up until about 5am. Then again, DF didn't get home from "escaping from the house" because of our neighbors until 4am. And I was up until like 4am. Always fun. Always fun.

The reason my FMIL called? Apparently she needed to bitch someone out. So my phone's text message inbox took the beating instead.
(But I ended up turning my phone off--which I do NOT suggest to anyone who has facebook text updates! I'm still getting the old ones from today!!!)

The truck got fixed... But, what was supposed to be a three minute replacing the rear wheel speed sensor turned into a 3 hour tearing the rear differential apart, draining the fluid, fishing the pieces of the old rear wheel speed sensor out of the DISGUSTING smelling differential fluid. Then cleaning the half of the differential cover, redoing the seal on the Diff, filling the differential with the EXPENSIVE ASS differential fluid, and then FINALLY mounting the new rear wheel speed sensor. Oh yea, and Josh did an oil change.

I'm happy though, my truck is so happy. :D Only one dash light on. And it's just because my windshield washer fluid is O-U-T. But it's okay, that's an easy fix. It just requires one of us ACTUALLY remembering to grab the fluid at the store one time. And then actually doing it. Haha, maybe I'll actually do it before Feb 28th when I need to have the truck inspected by. I'm hoping that if I don't, they won't fail the dang truck because of the light being on.

We got to go to our friends Jack and Lisa's. They have a two month old son, Tyler. Josh held him today for the second time. It almost kills me to see Josh holding him. Even though we've decided we don't want to have kids, at least not right now, that's what brings out the maternal side in me. Actually seeing Josh hold a baby, is very painful. Painful to know that Josh never wants to do that with a child of his own. Painful to think he'll never do that. But I guess right now, it's not that big of a deal. I'm 19. Josh is 20. And we've got other stuff we've got to take care of first.

I don't know exactly what else to say. Without coming across as a bitch.

Josh and I have had our fair share of arguements this year. Seems like we've had more arguements since New Years, than we've had the remainder of our relationship. I think some of it may have to do with the upcoming deployment this year. Knowing that now that it's 2010, we know what is happening in October. We know that at this point, it's most likely unavoidable. We're both irritated with the situation that's going on with his grandfather right now also. It's a hard situation for me to be in because there's absolutely nothing I can do. I can't change the way that Josh feels, I can't do anything to make the situation better. It is one of the few things in our relationship that I feel that I have no capability of changing. It's hard for Josh too because he's not home and he's used to being home and being able to take care of every situation and being able to protect his mother, grandmother, and grandfather from anything bad happening to anyone. Part of it is that for the past month basically, Josh and I haven't had any down time. We've had plans for just about every minute of every day from the moment he gets off from work until the moment we can think about sleep. It's things I want to change. It's things I'm hoping to change this year. Which leads me into the next blog...